sometimes I have to write it out
The more attention I get the more I want it. Today and yesterday, I have been wanting attention. Last night I went to a girls all nighter and I wasnt the funniest or the prettiest or the most friendly one there. I was ok with that, but I wanted attention from those people that I look up to and see as the most funny, pretty, and friendly. It feels like high school again. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME! I like when people look up to me, and I like being the good example.
Today I have been wanting to text all my guy friends. I want their attention now. I want them to want to talk to me, and hang out with me. If you are a woman you know that when a guy says he wants to hang out with you it means more than if a girl were to say that.
So I texted one last night, and we had a fun (maybe a little flirty) conversation. I woke up and regretted it, because I know I texted him because I knew he would act like that and it would make me feel better. Tonight I texted two more of my guy friends and neither have responded.
I don’t know what I want from them really. I just know that they always make me feel better. Not that I am feeling bad though either. The female mind is so complicated! I don’t blame men for steering clear from those text messages that sound needy, I give them props for being able to read into them actually. I just wish I had enough will power to stop my fingers from typing and sending.
